Focus+Determination = Success.

Focus+Determination = Success. C.I.P. (Christine In Progress)

We all scream for icecream!

Homemade ice cream made with bananas, assorted fresh berries and peaches. Ahhh mazing!!

 Made this healthy dessert using bananas, almond and coconut milk, frozen assorted berries and peaches. organic agave nectar and ice. I used the smoothie option on my blender till it became the perfect consistency then we froze it for a few hours. It was pure perfection!

Healthy Feels Good...

I killed it! 30 mins 15 elevation 3.0 speed stayed in my target heart rate zone. Thought I was gonna die LOL but I did it! Then I did my weight training and finished it all off with a delish green smoothie. Healthy feels so dam good!!

Become the Blessing...

The greatest gift of all is to become the blessing… (Ann Voskamp, Author, One Thousand Gifts) 

You have no clue who is watching you or who you are inspiring every day. I have been approached on numerous occasions by people who say they have been "watching" me and notice my transformation, they see the change in me and they are inspired to do the same. They are eating better, exercising, giving up

caffeine; they are even giving juicing a try… all sorts of wonderful healthy lifestyle changes are taking place all around me! Without even knowing it, I have been blessing others with my actions. Who knew that my challenges and my triumphs could be someone else’s inspiration and motivation?! I always say everything happens for a reason! And once again that saying rings true! Since last year I have faced down some hard core health challenges, but I have been determined to not give up or give in! My dad always said I had spunk! :) I have been determined to come through stronger and better than ever, I have been determined to be triumphant and I have believed that God would never leave me or forsake me during this or any other challenge in my life. I put the power of prayer, focus and determination into every minute every hour and every day. When I wake I start my day with this prayer/declaration… Thank you God for giving me another day of LIFE, sight and breath! I declare that I will be triumphant over my health challenges. I declare that today will be better than yesterday. I declare that I will never give up on me! I am so thankful for the realization that I am not only improving my own life and health but there is a domino effect going on around me as a direct result of my actions. I thank God for using me as a vessel to help inspire others to improve on their own health and wellness. I am so blessed to be surrounded by positive and supportive people all willing to help me or cheer me on as I continue on my journey, having that support helps me keep going on the days when I feel like I might not be able to. Feeling overwhelmed with joy and so thankful!

Go Outside and Play!

I took our daughters to the park by the lake this weekend. We walked the nature trail, spent some time chasing butterflies, had a wonderful picnic, fed the geese and a bunch of rowdy ducks! :) When we went to the playground; I was the only parent that was actually involved in play with my children, running, riding the see-saw and even swinging on the swings! (Swings are the best!) My inner child just refuses to stay “in” =) Go outside and play today! (Children are optional) ;-)

Mack and Cheese... maybe...

Made this over the weekend!

 Looks good right?! It was great!! And.... it’s Vegan! It was amazing!! No one could believe there was not any actual cheese in this Mac and Cheese! I picked up the recipe from a great blog called "That was Vegan?"  I added a little Braggs nutritional yeast to take the cheesy taste up another notch. It was Delish and healthy!!

If you are looking for comfort food without the calories, fat and cholesterol this is the one to try! If you are thinking about converting to a Vegan or Vegetarian lifestyle this is a great intro to what yummy stuff can be created without using animal products! Give this dish a try! Even our children approved this one!

Helpful tips to keep in  mind when making this recipe... I tried roasting my own butternut squash, I made too much so the first batch was more butternut squashy vs cheesy. For the second batch I went with the frozen butternut squash I say go that route, the recipe calls for 10 oz of butternut squash and the frozen package is exactly 10 oz so, no opportunity to screw up.  Also, I am a lazy cook so I put all the following ingredients in the blender

• 2 T Earth Balance
• 3 T flour
• 2 cups vegetable stock
• 10-12 ounces of butternut squash, thawed
• 1 cup soy cream

Then I poured it all in the pot to heat it up, and I tossed in the following ingredients:

• 1 small sweet onion very finely diced
• 1 bag  Daiya cheddar
• 1/4 teaspoon nutmeg 
• 1/2 – 3/4 teaspoon Herbamere (or salt of your choice)
• Pepper to taste

Once the ingredients came to a bubble I began to slowly add the Braggs Nutritional Yeast one table spoon at a time to taste, and then finally perfected the seasoning, sea salt, pepper and nutmeg to taste.

Here is the link to the full recipe: 

Butternut Squash Mac n’ Cheese 

 ENJOY!!

Share the Journey with me:

As I mentioned in the beginning, this space will serve as my public diary of sorts, I hope you will share my journey with me in love and support. As I have been going through this, friends, family and acquaintances began to pay attention and witness my physical, spiritual/emotional transformation, they wanted to know more. As I began to share a little more, I was surprised to discover, my journey was actually inspiring others! I could not believe that people I only know casually or never even met have started on their own health/wellness journey as a result of watching my personal transformation! Friends and Family have actually started Meatless Mondays to play around with the idea of transiting to a plant based diet!  Everyone I have had contact with has wanted to hear more, see more and learn more about my journey. So here I am at last, after a lot of thought and consideration I decided I want to share more and, for some crazy reason I want to do it all publicly. I have learned through my private struggles, there may be inspiration for someone else. My journey might actually be a blessing to someone and I don’t want to deny any person that opportunity!  I want this to be a place of positive energy and support, a place where we can share the best and sometimes the worst of ourselves.   I am going to be pretty vulnerable here and I hope you will receive that with love and support as I promise to do the same for you. I am not a Dr. or an expert, I am not selling anything and I have not found the magic potion to instant health and vitality!  Although it feels like it! I am just a woman, mom, and wife... in progress, every day, living life one day at a time, working hard to reclaim my own health and wellness, realizing the blessings in every day,  learning from and sharing my personal adventures and sharing some (hopefully) very valuable lessons along the way. Here’s to progress! 

What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger!

The saying is true, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger! And this song is absolutely one of my theme songs! I have been dealing with some major medical challenges over the past 8 months or so, yesterday, I met with a new specialist who is running new tests looking for new "stuff” and it appears I may have been misdiagnosed all these months. Here’s what’s going down, I will not live in fear! It doesn't matter what they find or don't find I know what I know and I know who I know. What I know is I have witnessed a transformation in the last few months, I am getting stronger and healthier every day and I won't let anyone tell me different! What I know is I am strong, I am fighter and I am not taking anything sitting down or lying down! But most importantly WHO I know is a mighty God that is the Chief Attending Physician in my life! Nothing else matters! #wegotthis!

Meanwhile… While they do all that I’m going to be over here doing this: C.I.P. is Born!

By the time I went to the new internist, I was sick and tired of every dam thing and I was desperate to gain some control over my body. The one thing I knew one thing for sure… being overweight was not going to help my situation. You see, I have always been a “thick” girl,  you know... curvy. After our first child was born I had a hard time maintaining a healthy weight but I eventually got it together.  Because I was on bed rest most of my second pregnancy I gained quite a bit of weight, after she was born, it was very difficult to loose. Until 2010, that year, I lost a good amount of weight and I was taking pretty good care of myself even though, I did fluctuate up and down a few pounds here and there, it was nothing too serious. After I got sick in November 2011 with this mystery thing, I quickly started to gain weight, almost overnight! It was obvious, the one thing I could do to help myself while these Dr’s were busy poking around, running scans and tests, was to try to gain some control by being proactive in my own health and wellness. the truth was, I was not taking good care of myself as I should have been, I was not eating well nor was I exercising, though at this point even if I wanted to, it was difficult to exercise due to constant episodes of vertigo, migraine headaches, paralysis and loss of vision! But nutritionally speaking, I spent many days loading up on gallons of coffee and most of my nutrition came from mostly processed foods with the occasional healthy salad chaser in between. My hope was, if I got a grip on what I was putting into my body and got moving even a little bit,  I  could begin to put the lid on this constant suffering and fear.     Light bulb!   

 

C.I.P. is born!

Armed with an awesome internist, two nutritionists, a gym membership, a personal trainer, a kindle loaded with books on health and wellness, juicing and cooking healthy vegan food (yep I am a vegan now), a shiny new pair of sneakers, tee-shirt, yoga pants, and a drive and determination like I never knew I had in me; I set out on my journey to gain control of my life and health.  I want to live, I want to be present in my children’s lives, I want to play with them and laugh with them. I want to be the lively fun and sassy wife my husband married not the broken, crying and sick in the bed person I had become.  It was time to take control and take action! I have it in me to do it and  I am going to do it!   

So far I have lost 50lbs! This journey has been, challenging, scary, educational, fun and empowering. I have had ups, downs and a few setbacks. I have cried, laughed and cried again. I have rediscovered a part of me that I thought was lost. I have found a new appreciation for life and living. It’s amazing really, but when you come “this” close to what you think could be the end on an almost daily basis you appreciate every little moment just that much more. The things I have taken for granted...well it just proves the saying, you truly don’t know what you have until it is gone!  I thank God every time I lost an ability... it came back. I thank God every time I suffered a migraine torture session that it came to an end without my brain exploding! But I realize the truth is, it could have easily gone the other way around on any number of occasions, like the time I lost my sight and I was sure it would not return! I literally thank God when I open my eyes in the morning to discover I am still alive and I have all my abilities in place! Did you ever wake up early just to watch the sun rise? These days, I do that often. This experience has changed me in ways I will probably never fully be able to explain. But I can say at the end of each day when I am resting my head on my favorite pillow the thoughts that are going through my head are those of gratitude.  Thank you God!

So what the hell is it?

Its been a few months since my life as turned up side down, I am working with the second neurologist and so far so good, she is going to run new tests and start the evaluation process all over again.  I have been dealing with this random torture of about 9 months at this point!  Once I get all of this done and over with I will know once and for all what it is and what it isn’t.  Once again I need to wait for my insurance to approve the "necessary" tests! So for now, its still a mystery diagnosis and you will find out what the hell this is when I do.